ennergy don't lie

 Today a friend writes

You give but little when you give of your possessions. It is when you give of yourself that you truly give. For what are possessions but things you keep and guard for fear you may need them tomorrow? … And what is fear of need but fear itself. Is not dread of thirst when your well is full, the thirst that is unquenchable? There are those who give little of the much of which they have – and they give it for recognition and their hidden desire makes their gift unwholesome. And there are those who have little and give it all.

And my reply was

Funny but the last few days I have been thinking all of me for all of you.

Yet there is so much in the words above and the average person does not grasp it. It reminds me when I was in my early 20's and told the person I was seeing that all I had to offer them of value was myself. Through our lives we have no realization that this is how it starts out, and then as the intimacy of friendship continues, they do not realize that what all ever I have is theirs as well- Thus there is satisfaction of giving and receiving on both ends-- yet there are those who only wanted what I had and to each of them I gave, but that is all they got-- in either case it was my pleasure, yet more fulfilling when all things are grasped.

Like with my neighbor, whose kids are like my own. He asked last year what I wanted for Christmas-- I said,  you know I do not do Christmas but life, and that he shares his kids with me and that is the bestest gift. He said those kids want to get me something. I said well get me some Reece's clusters and that way I can share it with them. Well Christmas eve morning , I took them (the kids) their gifts. And my neighbor said pick one, and was pointing to his vast array of  coleman camper stoves, of which he valued. I said nah, I am good, you already gave me a burn barrel, as I like to sit out in the winter and burn wood to stay warm and enjoy the crispness of the air. He said pick one or I will beat your ass. So I said this one, which brought a smile to his face. So we hung out for a bit and then I left. They went to the inlaws house for dinner and got home late, yet he hollered at me when I went to take my big girl out for a bathroom break-- so he comes running up with this new leash for me to use for my dog. The kind that has a handle at the end but also a handle about 12 inches from the neck as well. 

All this was a neighbor giving me of himself-- a friend - more than an acquaintance, yet not quite the core circle, but satisfying nonetheless.  I have only had two reach the core circle and yet they are are golden to me, Maybe it is realizing the value of the life that is within that is most important...